Over the river and through the woods…
I’m happy that it’s almost spring, the weather was just warm enough for me not to hate my life while making the trek from Harlem to Ridgewood. Also the tunnel at 14th and 6th is finally open so you don’t have to above-ground transfer anymore. Thank. Fucking. God.
Upon my arrival with my pink rolly luggage and freshly curled hair that definitely started to fall, I call CTG ANGEL and let her know I’ve arrived at her apartment. She told me to call her because her buzzer doesn’t work.
She greets me at the door giving fresh faced, dewy, woman while still serving ANGEL eleganza. She’s in a floor length graphic dress with images that most would find disturbing. Walking upstairs I admire the orange oakwood illuminated by warm antique light fixtures. Prewar for sure.
Her apartment of course has high ceilings, a large and open concept, and minimal noise coming from outside. The luxury of not living in Manhattan. We start talking about hair, makeup, and fashion almost immediately.
Hoping not to get distracted I force myself to focus and set up the studio, I’m a little bit nervous for my first interview but the vibes are right with CTG ANGEL which brings me some peace of mind. I hit record and thus starts our first ever podcast interview featuring CTG of the Month, Miss March 2024.
The Interview
Introducing Miss March 2024
ARIA: It’s me, CTG Aria, founder of cooltransgirl.com. And today is episode seven of my podcast Cool Trans Girl. For those of you that are new here, essentially I create the content I wish I would have had access to earlier in my transition relating to mental health, wellness, and spirituality as a trans woman.
Today is a very special episode because it is my first interview on this podcast and I talk a lot about healing through community. So I am bringing the community to Cool Trans Girl.
So without further ado, I would like to introduce the singer, musician, DJ, event producer, performance artist, actress. multidisciplinary. And she’s fresh off the release of her new album, HRT(error). She is. Angel. CTG Angel, welcome to the podcast.
ANGEL: Hi thank you for having me.
ARIA: Thank you so much for being the first girl to be on my podcast. I feel so happy to have another trans girl on here. I’m also so inspired by the work that you’ve put in.
And for those of you that have not listened to her new album, it’s fucking amazing. And it has this highly curated, beautiful aesthetic. And I’m going to let her talk more about that, in just a second.
But just to start the interview off, I think the girls would love to hear a little bit about your background and what has led you to this moment, where you’re from, and how you ended up in New York
ANGEL: Well, thank you for having me. I’m super excited to be your first interview guest. On Cool Trans Girl. So for those of you who don’t know, I am originally from Sydney in Australia, which is like halfway around the world and another like different equator where the toilets spin a different way.
I spent my first 19 years of my life there. Basically, it was a really boring ass place. Australia is a beautiful, beautiful continent that is, like, esthetically wonderful. But the people who inhabit it are like the color beige, you know, which can be gorgeous.
But in this case, in this sense, I mean, like devoid of life and, lust for life. There is definitely a lot of tall poppy syndrome, that I experienced back home, which is basically where they shun you for having dreams, they shun you for thinking big.
So basically, for trans women it’s like really difficult and different compared to America, which is infused with queer history. You guys have like a very elaborate knowledge of all history of queer resistance, queer joy, and trans power.
Australia, does not have that as woven into its tapestry as this country did. So growing up was difficult. Growing up, I always felt like I was shining a little bit brighter than everyone around me. And that was a bad thing.
I grew up in the coolest, most queerest hippest part of Sydney that you could grow up in. And I still wasn’t able to accommodate my expression of who I was.
So I always knew that I wanted to leave. And when I was in like the eighth or ninth grade, I was watching Gossip Girl and I was just like, I’m going to go there. I want to dress like fancy and be on The Met steps in the big city and, like, feel the drama of life.
I just always knew that that was the place where I belonged. And so similarly, around that time I discovered Drag Race, which you know, aired on TV in America, but back home nobody knew about Drag Race.
It wasn’t airing on any TV programs. I was just like torrenting it off like fucking mega share or like watching movies.
ARIA: So did you get a virus?
ANGEL: I didn’t get a virus. No. Was that the virus was my love for drag. Like it impacted me that way. So basically that was just me seeing expression and life and fun and costumes and character. I was like, oh my God, bitch, I need to like, feel that.
So from there, I went on and started researching queer history. You know, I found Paris burning at a very young age. I found the Queen at a very young age, all these kind of like, seminal documentations of queer life that existed in America, which just did not exist back home.
And I was just fascinated by all these wonderful people who are trans and dressed up and glamorous. And so I became enthralled with this idea of queer trans glamor and also had a revelation finding Marsha P Johnson and Sylvia Rivera
Reading about these stories at a very young age, really did determine my goal towards wanting to come here. So that was probably my biggest driving force.
And so when I graduated high school, I was auditioning for acting schools over here and luckily got in and at 19 I moved countries by myself. Worked three jobs and saved so much fucking money. And just came over here and started to live my dream. So that’s how I literally ended up here.
ARIA: I’m curious so did you realize you were… I mean… I feel like we all have this “feeling” in the back of our minds. And it’s just a matter of being willing to accept ourselves.
So was it not until you had come to New York that you were like, this is who I am, and this is for me? Or were you already on the fence about it when you were back in Australia?
ANGEL: I don’t think I felt the freedom to be whatever I wanted to be until I moved to New York. And, you know, I went through the whole gamut, I went through every iteration of pronoun that there is.
I did you know… he/him, he/they, they/them, they/she, she/they, she/her. I did the whole pipeline, but that didn’t really start until I moved to America. And I moved to New York because I just started feeling freer about expressing myself.
However, I didn’t actually discover and make the, you know, the switch deep inside the big emotional change until the pandemic happened. And I went back home was just kind of in this cocoon, with all this time to think about myself.
I just went through this metamorphosis and just kind of took the jump before coming back to New York in 2021. So it’s interesting. I would have thought that I would have transitioned in New York and found that in New York, but I ironically started my transition in the place where I felt most trapped. From my childhood
ARIA: Now that’s like really interesting that you had to go back home to sort of like have this metamorphosis. But I think it’s it’s in those moments where you feel most vulnerable you realize what’s missing.
ANGEL: Even when I was back home I moved out of home very quickly during the pandemic and was living with friends, and had started doing drag, like professionally at that time, in a very small, tiny, boring, abstract scene.
ARIA: I feel like a drag. Really is a segway into trannyism. I had also like did a summer of drag in Bellingham, which is like this tiny ass college town. My makeup was so fucking busted. But yanno, it was like when I started cross-dressing, right?
And that’s when I realized there’s more to be discovered, was that kind of like how it was for you?
ANGEL: Well no, my drag back home was non-binary as fuck. It was club kid. It was inspired by clubs. that’s what I was so inspired by at the time. And I actually started going by the name Starchild, which was, I called it The Lovechild between Ziggy Stardust and Lady Gaga, which are two of my biggest inspirations in life.
And so I was basically this alien creature, and I would paint my house face with all these crazy alien mugs. I did drag king stuff, and like, I was really running the gambit and honing in my makeup skills. That’s what quarantine really did for me. I mean, I started doing makeup when I was 15, so I looked like busted when I was young.
But the fish didn’t really come until I moved back to New York. And I started doing drag with the iconic Haus of Quench. We were a very prolific drag house over the pandemic and shortly coming out of it.
They really gave me a space to showcase trans excellence. And basically when I came back from Australia and I starting my transition during my non binary gender fuck era. I was like, wait, now I just want to be pretty.
I had done all this beautiful, poetic, like high art drag. And I was like, now I just want to take my clothes off and just give body, long hair and gorgeous soft, subtle glam. Woman.
ARIA: With Haus of Quench, were there girls that helped you realize your womanhood or were mothers to you?
ANGEL: I would say that already coming into it, my makeup skills were top tier, so I was already kind of able to give that top tier eleganza. But definitely we were just a house of like every expression of transness that you could imagine.
So it wasn’t more so like we were an army of these women. We were, you know, trans masc, non-binary, trans for, like all the iterations of like expressions of gender. So it just made me feel like, oh, I’m going to do whatever I want to do.
And I would say one of my sisters, Paris LaHomie, an amazing drag queen, another trans woman. She definitely allowed me to feel my own, some form a womanhood with her. Also some of my notable other sisters. Sue Intuit who is an amazing DJ and, event creator. You know, she was another trans woman there.
One of my best friends, Carmen de Cristo. Foto de Cristo. Amazing trans woman. So yeah, I was surrounded by every aspect of transness, but I definitely got a lot of sisters out of it that made me just feel so happy.
I had finally found that community of trans women and trans people were just authentically living, which is exactly what I wanted when I was in the eighth grade, ninth grade, seeing these like all these things on my computer screen, like trannies, that’s what I was searching for. And and coming back in 2021, I really found that.
ARIA: Well I think it’s like so important to see other trans women thriving in order for you to see yourself in that light. Because I feel like the narrative that has been written for trans women is just like so sad and heart wrenching.
Basically, like all will ever be is just like impoverished and sad. And we will never live up to our full potential and we can’t make our own money and be in love.
So to see, like other trans women unapologetically being themselves or just pursuing everything that they want and like…
ANGEL: Being happy
ARIA: And that’s also part of, of what Cool Trans Girl is, is to let you guys know that there is so much more to life.
For any of you guys that are in a hoe-dunky town, like we’ve been there trust! You have to believe in yourself and pursue and follow your dreams.
Okay anyways I digress, I was hoping to kind of get into your album HRT(error) which is such a cunt fucking name.
I just wanted to ask, like, what your initial vision was for the album and what inspired you to create it and who you made this album for, and etc etc.
ANGEL: Well, as the name kind of suggests, it was created because of a lot of pain, and I think it’s really important that in the music industry, trans stories are able to be told and trans authenticity is able to be seen not through just image, but through lyrics as well.
Because I don’t know many pop stars or, you know, famous musicians that have lyrics like I do that directly talk about the trans experience. Absolutely. And as an artist, I’ve always used my identity as the basis of my creation because I just feel really comfortable expressing what I’m feeling so that I can get it out and process it, and in hopes that other people can, too.
You know, I think that we need more spaces where as trans women, we can acknowledge our pain, our rage, our fight, our intense feelings and feel catharsis around getting them out. So basically, this album was a healing process for me of my trauma that I have experienced going through my transition medically over the past three years.
ARIA: I think that so often the space that we take up as trans woman is so catered towards cis people, and it’s almost like we can’t even talk about our experiences.
I mean, for example, okay Kim Petras love her down. I love her down she actually inspired my transition. But you know her her music very much caters to the masses, which is fine. We love an American Top 40 moment.
But I think it’s so important for us to create art for our own community or talk about our own experiences, like within being trans
So could you, could you talk to me about some of those experiences that helped you, create some of these songs?
ANGEL: Well, I guess one of my favorite tracks on the album, which is one of the first ones that I made, was called body. By the way, this song, my favorite, kind of like, a mantra around body dysphoria and dysmorphia and just the the feeling of being in this vessel that doesn’t align with me.
And look, there are trans people who feel 100% comfortable in who they are and their body. Medical transition is known as is no necessity to being a trans person.
But for me, I feel very uncomfortable in my body and I felt a lot of pain and a lot of trauma being in something that I don’t feel comfortable and a lot of the time.
So that song was like an exorcism of like literal pain and discomfort that I feel. And that’s why it’s probably one of the craziest sounding on the album and the most experimental, because there aren’t many words that you can use to describe dysphoria to someone who doesn’t experience it. But I wanted a song that when you heard it, you felt the sound of dysphoria.
And you were able to to get it out to, like, almost rip it out of, you.
ARIA: You really can’t describe it to somebody like cis. People love to say like, oh, you’re born in the wrong body. I’m like, shut the fuck up. Like, it’s it’s so much like more than that.
When you have these moments of dysphoria, they can be so heart wrenching and painful and soul crushing and people don’t understand the pain of it. And then you also have all of these other things coming at you from so many different angles.
Like society just telling you that you’re fucking disgusting and you’re just like I want to be comfortable in my own body. But I don’t even have the luxury, of that.
So body dysphoria some what are some ways that you alleviate dysphoria or cope with dysphoria when you have those moments?
ANGEL: I would say fashion and makeup have been my biggest armor against my dysphoria here. And I have always loved fashion and to express myself. But as soon as I started identifying as a woman, I remember putting on like, a bra for the first time.
And I remember going to the beach and I was like, this is the first time I feel right at the beach. And it was because all those times I had to be wearing a bra.
So all of a sudden, like, I found this power in dressing myself how I felt. And so anything that made me feel glamorous, that made me feel my body. Tight fitting clothing to show off my body, wearing, body shaping garments, wearing corsetry, you know, and I go to full extremes because I love glamor and I’m a fashion diva.
But for me, I have found so much pleasure in manipulating my body through clothing and makeup. I mean, makeup was my first defense against my dysphoria that I found when I was like 15 years old. In high school I was putting makeup on and washing it off before my parents got home.
Like it was just a little sparkle to light up my day. And that just kept developing. And now it’s just like, I can paint so many different faces on. And yeah, when I don’t like what I see, I can change it, with the power of makeup.
ARIA I mean I, I think I met you like a little bit over a year ago and you had like, this completely different aesthetic. I mean, just in general fashion helps us evolve and help us change and metamorphosis into our full butterfly selves.
Do you feel like earlier in your transition, you didn’t take as many risks with fashion before? Or do you think you’ve always just been like, I’m gonna to go for it?
ANGEL: I think once I moved to New York, I was like, I’m just going to fucking wear whatever the fuck I want. I’m gonna go for. And I was very androgynous at one point.
Which don’t be calling me androgynous now. Back when I was, you know, non-binary. I really was into gender play. And I think my love for drag was just that was an exploration of gender playing and dressing up the body.
So just wigs and you know inches of crazy hair. I used to put like, tutus on my head. I would I use anything I could to create a character.
ARIA: Okay, so back to your album. After talking about body, what overall, what are you hoping trans women take from this album?
ANGEL: I hope that they can take a breath and feel seen.
I hope that they can feel that there is representation of not just what we look like, but what we think and what we feel emotionally and the rollercoaster that we go on.
ARIA: Yeah absolutely. And I think it’s like there’s so much emphasis on our physical transformations. And we seldom talk about what is going on up in our heads.
And I mean our minds just evolve like as regular people. So not only are they like coming of age, but we’re becoming like a woman at the same time. The hormones literally alter our brain chemistry.
ANGEL: Like we’re going through puberty at a later stage in life a lot of the time, and that is just not often talked about just how crazy that is.
So a lot of the album touches on, like, all those kind of feelings that have come up. I guess through puberty, there’s lust, there’s rage, there’s anger, there’s puss. There’s sensuality. There’s sex, there’s not wanting sex. There’s being in a cave all alone, there’s isolation.
That’s why I say it’s like a roller coaster of the album. Because it really is crazy. It’s just wild being a trans woman and medically transitioning. Which is specifically what I wanted to talk about.
ARIA: Going through that as an adult is is rough.
ANGEL: While paying rent while trying literally trying to exist like as an adult. Like you’re not a child. Like your parents are not helping you out, you’re on your own.
ARIA: Okay. I wanted to talk a little bit more about, like, the creative process of your album. So when creating an album, was it harder than you initially thought?
What was the kind of the process for creating it and what got you to your end goal?
ANGEL: Yeah, it was it was difficult for me. This is the first album that I have fully produced myself. I have made two other, projects before in my life, where I was working with another producer and bringing my vision, my lyrics, and working with them to create something.
But this was the first one that I sat down on Ableton with my computer and made the sounds myself. And so I was basically learning a computer program and I’m like, not good a computers. I don’t like computers, but I love electronic music.
So it was just basically difficult for me to learn a electronic way of producing music because I’m a pianist, classically trained my whole life, like, I spent like, what, 12 years of my life doing piano lessons.
Having such a tactile way of creating music, and now I’m like sitting in front of a computer. How do I feel that same connection? So it took me a little bit of time.
There are early drafts of the album. There were early songs that I made that by the time I was like, what, five months later, my skills were already better than what I had made the stuff before. So there was a lot of scrapping of old things and making things new and editing things.
So the whole process took a year. Yeah. And I would say I wrote in bursts, I wrote a bunch of the songs, and then I took a massive break and I had a massive blockage and just was like, what am I trying to say? Why aren’t my skills as good as they are?
The album actually really came together due to two very close friends of mine who are also trans women, also producers. My first girl is called Clear.
She’s the artist. It’s clear you should follow her. And she was the person who mixed my album. She basically educated me on Ableton. I sat there with her the entire time of the mixing process, and we basically worked together, symbiotically, really wonderfully.
And she taught me a lot about Ableton and about the software. And just by me watching, I was able to like, understand what Ableton was, understanding compression, all these music terms.
Which is why I think the sound is so high quality is because I actually took the time to learn and have someone who’s also amazing work on the project with me.
And then the other friend of mine is Violet, Ultra Violet, who I have made my previous work with, and she mastered the album. So the mastering is basically just getting the sound where it needs to be for like a professional level.
I honestly like don’t really fully understand it but she mastered that shit. She mastered all over it.
But basically, like without these two trans women, this project would not sound as high quality and have the finish that it does.
So I really do attribute me putting this out as like a wonderful collaboration with two other trans women. I think it’s wonderful. Like, yeah, three trans women came together like the Powerpuff Girls.
ARIA: that’s why it is so important to be in community with other trans women because you can find so much inspiration from, other women like you.
And also self isolation I think is like the absolute worst coping mechanism for life. So like if you’re at home and if you’re just isolating and say you’re, you’re undergoing a project as momentous as, making an album.
Although there are periods, of course, where you self-isolate because you’re focused on that, but if you don’t have people to support you along the journey, then your project is going to die.
ANGEL: Yeah over the course of the year it really took me meeting other people and being like, hey, I have this work. Like, do you want to hear it? Do you want to like help? And do you want to like, create it with me and like take it to the next step and like being able to do that really was the reason that I got my ass up.
Aria: Because you have people holding you accountable.
ANGEL: You have deadlines,
ARIA: You have people that you want to like, show the amazing work that you did. And yeah, you know, I think we as a community can help, prop each other up in so many ways.
Okay, moving forward, what are your favorite Cool Trans Girl Approved products, basically do you have any product recommendations that specifically benefit trans women?
ANGEL: So I picked out a few products that I think are very much CTG approved that will hopefully help with little unique problems that I think we find as trans women
So the first one I’m going to talk about is this Peter Thomas Roth Water Drenched Hyaluronic Cloud Cream Hydrating Moisturizer. She’s a bit of a mouthful.
A water based moisturizer is going to be really good for after you have gotten your laser treatment. I spent a whole year doing laser, and something that was really helpful is a water based moisturizer which has a really wonderful cooling effect.
And you want something that’s lightweight and that rejuvenates the skin. This is a pretty bougie brand. You can find like other cheaper versions.
But basically look for a water based moisturizer because it’s just going to be so nice and cooling for your skin, especially after such a abrasive treatment.
Even something like after shaving, because shaving is so abrasive on your skin. And there were times before I had products like this that after I shaved it would sting. So having something that has a really wonderful cooling effect, it’s just going to be really wonderful for you,
Next up, speaking of shaving, we have the First Aid Beauty Ingrown Hair Pads with BHA & AHA
The miracle product. Because, look, we be shaving. The worst pain in the world is fucking red, lumpy, bumpy fucking ingrown hairs. And basically after you shave, immediately use this.
For me, it’s pretty much prevented ingrown hairs. And any time that I have shaved and not use that, I’ve gotten ingrown hairs and I’ve been like, okay, I need to do like a couple days of like putting these on, and they basically really clear it up they’re a life saver.
Another magic product is from Doctor Jart. This is the Tiger Grass Color Correcting Treatment. Now I recently found, this awesome treatment that gets rid of blemishes and redness specifically.
And it’s something that I would wear underneath my makeup before I do concealer or foundation on the red spots of the face. It basically just evens out your skin tone so that it is not bright and red, because that’s something that I think can be quite unsightly sometimes.
Yeah, yeah. You want to get that really like smooth airbrushed base that looks just flawless skin. You can wear this just like a primer almost. And it, gives you a really good first base.
ARIA: I know we kind of touched on this already, what are what are some self-care rituals that you have for yourself? Just to, like, you know, keep your mental health in check?
ANGEL: I would say going to the gym has been really great for me. It was something that was not wonderful for me when I was younger and I didn’t enjoy being in a space that was surrounded by so much masculinity.
But like recently, I’ve just been feeling really confident wearing very body shapely garments and just like serving real body, like feeling cunt and walking around like a superstar.
And then I would say, honestly, my skincare and my haircare, you know, having nighttime rituals, having masks, having like, just ointments and layers and things where I can just, feel my beauty really is something that I have to do.
A skincare regimen, something every day that I can do, that just makes me feel like I’m bettering myself.
ARIA: Do you have morning rituals as well? And I know that a lot of the times we as trans women can struggle with depression or getting out of bed. Have you struggled with that in the past? Do rituals help you with that.
ANGEL: My ritual is Lexapro every morning.
Yeah, I would say, honestly, reaching out about my mental health is something that I do to better myself. Going to therapy in the past has been life saving for me and going to see a psychiatrist or being able to be prescribed medication.
It’s not for everyone, but it saved my life. And so, you know, I take my, my anxiety meds, I take my depression meds, I take my, my woman meds every morning. And that’s kind of like how I face the world
A good head makes a good puss
ARIA: Okay. Oh, okay. This this is a good question. Okay. So you have a song on your album called, Bad Tranny.
You talk about a confrontation with another trans woman, and you bring up very good points about how how oftentimes trans women can turn against one another.
I wanted to kind of talk about like one that confrontation. And, why do you think that oftentimes our community can end up being divided against one another?
ANGEL: Yeah. Well, trans misogyny is a disease, and you don’t have to just be a cis person to show symptoms. Basically, last year, I was deejaying a party.
It was a rooftop fashion event for a friend of mine. And there was this trans girl who kept coming up to me and was very insistent that her friend was going to play. And I was like, no, you know, shade, that’s just like, not the T. That’s not what’s happening. I’m gonna go after this.
And she basically just kept coming and coming up against me, like just being like very adamant. And it eventually escalated to a point where her friend, her little Twink friend threw a drink in my face and lunged towards me. And I saw red.
Honestly, like, I’m not afraid to, like, beat a bitch down. Like, if you gotta go, you gotta go.
When trans girls are under attack. What do we do?
ARIA: Stand up, fight back, knock a twink on his ass!
ANGEL: And as I say in the song, never trust a tranny who surrounds herself for twinks. But basically, the next day, this trans girl starts blasting me online.
Calling me all kinds of really horrible things. Attacking my size, attacking how I look, calling me a bodybuilder, calling me all these like really aggressive, derogatory male things and just started spreading all this shit online. And luckily all my girls and my friends came for her. We didn’t sit back down and take a ride.
But it was really horrible for me to feel like, here’s another trans woman who feels so comfortable attacking something that she should know. Causes the most amount of pain to any trans woman’s life is how they see themselves and attacking their womanhood.
No one has any right to come for any trans person’s perception of themself or image of themselves. To attack someone’s image is so cruel.
It was such a low blow. And yeah, so I just wanted to make a song that put that into light. But, trans misogyny is something that is real. Internal trans misogyny is something that trans people battle. And even though we’re a community, we still face attacks from within us.
You know, the the trans medicalist community, I guess community, if you want to say that. But trans people who basically feel that they are more trans or better than other trans people who don’t choose to medically transition.
Is a horrible tenant of the trans existence and the trans community that unfortunately exists. And so I just wanted to speak on something that most people would assume doesn’t even happen at all.
ARIA: I think that we as trans women know how like true this is especially from girls that are farther along in their transition or girls that are just like in part of the transmedicalist cult
To have this like deep internalized hatred for themselves. And they’ve only been able to find acceptance or at least be able to tolerate themselves because they’ve gotten to this point of passing.
It’s just disgusting for you as a trans woman to put down another, another trans women. We have so many opps, we really do need to be propping each other up and cheering each other on.
And also just with, with transmedicalism, like, sure. Like us, you know, binary trans women, we may have different experiences than, you know, non-binary or people who choose not to medically transition.
But when we get into this space of talking about like, oh, you’re not trans and you’re not this like it’s the same energy as cis woman being like, you’re not a women and really we’re so much stronger together.
ANGEL: Yeah, it’s really, really unfortunate. And like, like you’ve said, like, I know passing is not something that is like, required as a trans person, as a trans woman.
It’s something I personally would like to feel. It’s something that I struggle with. And I would like to go through all these surgeries, I do all these things because I’m trying to just get a little bit of peace.
To feel comfortable in my body and be not feel the stares of everyone else, like exiling me as something that I don’t feel like I am. So basically, for someone to come, for someone for not passing is just like, so cruel and so you know exactly what you’re doing.
ARIA: Because as a trans women you’ve been through that pain. You know that pain. We as trans women just oftentimes just want to be left alone, to live our own lives and not be, gawked at.
It’s so heartbreaking to leave your house and think like, whenever somebody is looking at you, they’re clocking you. Even though I feel like that’s not the case a lot of the time.
Like, people are just like looking, you know, people just like, look at you, but you have all this internalized trans misogyny that we all have to work through.
ANGEL: If you’re listening, you know, there are bitches out there who know who you are.
ARIA: Let’s do better, sister.
ARIA: Okay. Okay, so this is the last question I think I’m going to touch on, but any last pieces of advice for cool trans girls who are trying to build a life for themselves, or maybe that are just earlier in their transition?
ANGEL: Right. I would say advice would be seek out other trans people, find your community. That has been the best thing for me, has been being around other like minded people, people who go through the same experiences as me. So that would be number one.
I would say find little ways to feel your beauty. Feel your pussy down deep in your soul as Mother Ru says. Find ways, whether that’s through clothing, makeup, skincare, self-care whatever it is, find a little hobby that is for you that makes you feel how you are inside.
ARIA: Absolutely. So well said. Thank you so much for coming on the show. Thank you for having me guys. You need to stream HRT(error). It will be linked in the description here.
I’ll be blasting it on social media. If you are a trans girl, you need to fucking listen to it. And if you’re not trans, you should still listen to it and get some perspective. So now presenting Miss March 2024 CTG Angel
See You Next Tuesday
Xoxo
CTG ARIA
